Yesterday I had one of those moments, you know those perfect moments where you make a point of turning it into a memory, a point in your life that you hold on to, a snapshot of that point in time.
Harry had a match at Fulham yesterday and Emma and the 2 other kids travelled down and I went to meet them there after work to watch the game. When it was finished and the journey back to Derby started the 2 boys jumped in with me, I think the promise of junk food for tea helped, and we headed out onto the M25 to head home. I've posted before about my love of music and I think I'm handing that over to my kids, they all love music, different kinds of music, and they also moan at me until I put on the radio station they want or something on Spotify whenever we travel anywhere. The track at the top of this post I can't stop listening to at the minute, the words are something that strike a chord with me. For him it's about one person but for me there are a 4 people who helped me when I was at my lowest and stayed with me, right next to me right up to now, those who never left my side when I became unbearable at times and pushed them away, they are the ones who kept me and still keep me strong and I will always take them as they are because they took me as I am and still do every day. I thank them for that, I always will. Anyway the boys both love this song too and as I put it on they stopped talking and messing about and started singing along to it, I turned it up louder and joined in, not one of us has got a voice and Charlie knows about 3 lines in every 4 of the song but he's not 5 yet! The singing was awful but there was love and laughter and as I looked ahead at the traffic and the dimming day I smiled and sang louder. I was at that minute enjoying a special moment in time with my boys, we were all enjoying the same thing, smiling together,laughing and singing together in a moment of joy and it was a perfect moment and one I had to keep, to remember, to cherish. There was a time I wondered if I would see these days or even enjoy life again because I was afraid of not living so much that I didn't live. I felt distant from the very ones who loved me the most because I felt I had let them down because I might leave them. I'm one of the lucky ones I haven't left and now I can be thankful and enjoy those perfect moments whenever and wherever they come along.
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Darren EvansOn Feb 11th 2013 my life changed forever when I was diagnosed with a myxoid liposarcoma of the right thigh. This is my version of my life since then. Archives
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